Fertility struggles

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I never thought I would near my next birthday and not be pregnant or without a baby.  My entire life, I thought I would decide to start a family and I’d soon become a mom.  I figured it would all be easy, and glorious. I never dreamt I would be struggling to get pregnant.

After a while, when you’re not successful, you start to associate the word ‘failure’ every time you pee on a stick and it doesn’t come out the right color.  Every time my period is a few days late, I am excited and then disappointed when it begins.  Everywhere I look, women are pregnant.  My fertility struggles has become a very frustrating place..

When we were still in California, I asked my doctor to be referred to a fertility doctor, since we had been trying to have a baby for nearly a year.  Her response was “you haven’t been trying long enough and you are too young.”  Once we moved here to Okinawa in June, I met my wonderful doctor who told me the following: “It is not ok that you aren’t pregnant and drinking the water here isn’t going to help you.  Let’s find out what is going on.”

After having blood drawn three times, peeing in a cup several times, I am finally seeing a doctor on the 16^th that specializes in fertility issues.  I feel relief in finally knowing why I am not pregnant (yet) and looking forward to hearing what can be done to help me.